lol this is like the blog of negativeness where all my sadness is put here and shyt.. anyways wells recently ive bin told off by my dad pretty badly.. hmm pretty upsetting.. anyways the reason to that is cos mum saw mi with julien one day and i wasnt ment to be seeing him or something den dad blew up.. and i didnt say a single word.. anyways dad got pissed and took my keycard away from mi.. and den wot happend was that.. he didnt say anything to mi since thursday nite.. anyways yesterday i was being a good girl k? like a real good one hu didnt talk or anything.. den i was doing my notes for society and den mum and dad were talking bout newspapers how mum had to buy al the newspapers for sat and sun and dad's like WTF U BOUGHT NEWSPAPER BOTH SAT AND SUN on sun its the same one as sat's one and he chucks a huge tantrum at mi.. for buying the same newspaper twice goes on bout how money isnt to be wasted and den he walks off.. den i go into the kitchen and go to mum if he reali cares bout that 2.20 ill pay for it.. and den he comes storming in YOU USING MONEY TO SHUT ME UP NOW.. YOU EARN A MERE 70 DOLLARS A WK AND I EARN LETS SEE HOW MUCH? AND UR USING 70 BUCKS TO SHUT MI UP?? and den something happened..

at the dinner table.. dad sits at the head and mum sits diagonal to me.. and sis sits next to mi and i sit near dad ... so we're all eating pretty much in silent den i dunno wot happens.. dad's like.. YOU NOE WOT.. I DON'T WANNA SIT HERE AND EAT .. I DONT WANNA SEE YOUR FACE.. I DUN WANT TO SIT AND EAT HERE BECOS UR HERE AND U EXIST.. mans dat full hurt cos he was directly speaking to mi.. and den i started to cry mum got annoyed sis was like WTF? and den dad was like off being the angry guy he is now.. and yeh.. den he went on the comp and u noe how keely chats to like peeps.. wells she was describing it to someone over the net.. and dad read it mans SO MUCH FOR PRIVACY!!! anyways den he told keely off.. and it was all a random.. pretty much all nite.. mum and dad were like outside.. and keely and i were inside..

anyways another thing ... i found out that the reasn for daniel dumping mi was realli the reason i thought from the beginning.. i spose im jst too smart :P ahahahaha jks jks hmm feel pretty bad for someone tho.. but daniel got hit one part of mi im heaps happy the other is like i hope he;s alrite.. but stuff it .. its his own fault u noe... and the chick's...

anyways mum atm is like telling my sister off jst for slping a bit late.. and i spose our parents are just i dunos.. bit dodgy lately.. too much stress.. and im like trying to study at times or read.. and i get told off for that.. how gay..

anyways life with julien.. it feels like death without him... i dunno i feel bad.. i miss him.. and i hope he misses mi.. u noe i keep thinking he will eventually brk it off wit mi.. but i spose thats mi.. i was talking to ant last nite.. over the fone.. cos icudnt ring julien cos it was like 11:00 and i felt heaps bad.. and it was like no one was dere.. and then i thought antony cud help.. and den... i rang him.. we talked for about an hr.. den daisy rang him and he hung up.. sometimes i wish that the person available to talk to mi was julien.. but most of the time he isnt available to talk.. so derefore i dunnos...

anyways he's a special guy to mi.. very special in fact.. one hu brings mi to my feet when im sad when he's round i spose onli at times.. cos srsly how often do i get full upset in front of friends.. disregarding the times i get dumped.. so u see i dunnos... but at the sound of his voice i cud brk down and cry my ass off.. cos. i dunno it jst happens..

cos on friday morn he rang mi.. i was like full crying outside the school library and like yeh ... its jst comforting to cry with julien xD i spose.. or at the sound of julien's voice.. tho it was so hard to cry in front of daniel... or at the sound of daniel's voice.. daniell was different.. i wasnt mi wen i was wit daniel.. and i spose yeh xD thats the way it is.. cos im happily with julien while he's stuck hurting his friend for the girl..